Breathe

So I think that it is official safe to say that it has been ages since I've wrote here.

I started to journal about a month and a half ago, and I reckon that instead of writing here, I just wrote there (assuming that you all knew how I was doing and what not! haha) So firstly, I apologize for keeping everyone who cares, out of the loop.

Where to start. A lot has happened since the last time I wrote. I have not been doing to much to be honest, I've been staying in more, trying to get more of my assignments done, so come june I won't have to spend my time working on them. You know? I reckon its always better just to get stuff like that out of the way.
I've also been writing a lot. I sort of go through seasons in life - seasons where I can write a lot of music that I like, and seasons where I can't write at all, everything I try to write stinks. Well for about two weeks I wrote none stop, I think I wrote 5 new songs which I actually like, a few that I really like. So I've spent some time recording them, working on them, just giving them air to breathe. I have started to get some bookings. Playing in sydney is not as easy as one would think it would be. Being a big city you figure that there are lots of places to play and lots of artists to share the stage with, but unless you've lived here and know the right people - its super hard (at least to me). I am excited to play a few shows. I'll post some photos of them when they roll around. Back to the writing of the songs though... I am hoping to do a full length album come either december or january. I haven't really figured out which one yet. But it will be one or the other. I've found some people who run a studio in B.C. who've done a couple albums for my friends that I really love, so I am pondering the though of going out there and doing it with them.
Who really knows though, I am sort of dreaming a lot these days (which is a good thing!).

So about the elephant in the room. Maybe I am the only one seeing it, but I figure I'll be the one to bring it up?
So before in a couple posts I talked a bit about the possibility of me coming home, not due to homesickness or anything like that, but simply because this is not really where I feel I should be right now. I've spent a lot of time praying, a lot of time weighing out the options. Honestly, I just wanted to make the right choice, not what was right for me, or for you - but just the right choice. I've decided to come home in fall. What can be said after that.

I can't remember if I've wrote about this. But dreams. They're good right? I think they are but more then often they are just that, just dreams - things that never come true. Right? Do you think thats how they are suppose to be? I don't really know. I have a few friends with huge dreams, and sometimes they feel so daunting - yet at the same time so good, because its what we truly long for right? I think dreams are special... I have learnt that they are not just things we have, that we've come up with - but dreams are things which are given to us, placed in our hearts by God himself. He knows he best, he knows what makes us tick, he knows what we like, what situations we do best in, etc - thus I'm pretty sure he would know what our dreams would be (even before we knew what our dreams would be).

For me, music is my dream, it always has been. Its something that I feel has been placed there by God. I know that he can use me through that outlet somehow. I feel its a dream which I should chase. You know?

Either way...

Life is going pretty well here. I am just trying to get stuff done with classes, and before I know it I'll be back home.
Thats a little bit of an update for now. I am honestly going to try and post more often.

Thanks for reading!