Breathe

So its been about a week since I've wrote here I think. I'm not really sure who is still reading this, but I thought I would give (whoever is still reading) you an update on this past week, my thoughts, my heart, life.

Things have been good lately. I've sort of found peace with the whole - unsure what choice to make - position. Its a tough spot to be in, not knowing where you are, where you stand with the situation, not sure what choice to make. But God is good.
I've honestly really appreciated your prayers so much.

Its been a rather short week - we have today off (which is usually the craziest day of the whole week) because it is ANZAC day. I am not totally sure what it is all about, I know that it has to do with the wars and such. Sort of like our rememberence day? I reckon so. Today feels a little weird though, I am not totally sure what it is, what feels weird. Something just feels a little off.

I am not going to lie - I had a rather odd sleep. I woke up, I am guessing around 6:00 am this morning, and heard someone practicing drums. I am not sure if that was for real or if I was on drugs, haha (figuratively), but it was weird! I think I fell back asleep and woke up again, shortly after - and heard someone practicing vocal warm ups. It really made no sense.

Either way.

Something which I've been really just loving, I guess you could say - is the moments that God gives us. I'm sort of a "moments" person. I thrive on moments that I have. I've come to learn that - its not about the whole experience, but the moments that come with the experience. Maybe this is just me, but here are my thoughts.
For me personally, moments are the things which stick with me. Such as when I was a kid - at my grandpa's jamboree, or in my grandma's backyard, riding four foot powder at fernie, playing at harvest moon... etc. These little moments stick with us, and its in these moments where were just like... Its just sort of perfect you know ? Around college, we've had a few amazing moments lately. Mainly - wednesday chapel, the whole college comes together to spend an hour or so, just listening to the word and worshiping. Most times it is really good - this week was beyond good though. The whole thing was just really great, a great word, the worship team was right on, but the moment came at the end, when it should have been ending, and the band kept playing more - just because the presence in the place. God just sort of, how I like to put it, was hanging out with us. The band stopped playing, and in a room with (guessing) 600, 700 - kids, it was silent for two or three minutes before the worship leader prayed. We all stood still, time stood still, and no one wanted to move. The presence of God was so thick in that room, it was one of those moments.

God loves us so much, not in a strict rules sort of love, but in the "i'm walking with you and Im going to pick you up when you fall" fatherly way. God loves us. I don't think I could say that enough. Its a huge revelation to grasp.

I was watching Louis Giglio's Indescribable dvd - and everytime I watch it, it just sort of sets me in my place as a mortal. He talks about God's creation, the universe in great detail. How nasa has now been able to take photographs of galaxies that are something like 500 billion light years away, stuff like that. The God who loves us, you and me - sinners, holds that in his hand, it just reminds us who our God is. He is huge, and powerful - when God opened his mouth - stars come out, he names a new star every second. God is unreal, yet he spends time with us. In psalm 8 it talks about Gods creation and says something like: Who are we that you should take a second look at us. And I agree, who are we - God is so so so good to us.

I think I could talk forever about it. But i'll leave it at that.
I hope you're all well friends. I miss you all.

Have a good week / weekend!