Im no poet

Who am I?
I am pretty sure
Im not who you think I am
Although I wish I could be that person.

Im me.
Somedays I am the person I strive to be
Other days I look in the mirror
And I don't understand why I do the things I do

I know what I want
I even have the map of how to get there
But sometimes I fall asleep at the wheel
And I will fall

The worst part about me is how I can hurt others
God didn't create me to do that.
God is a God of love
So how did I end up becoming this monster

I rely on forgiveness
The forgiveness of friends
The forgiveness of foes
And the forgiveness of the almighty

He is the one who judges all
and before his thrown I want to be clean
So lord put out this unholy fire in my heart
Make me as the snow that falls from the sky

Change me inside and out
Change the words that come from my mouth
May they be words of joy and peace
Not of hurt and slander.

God help me.
Change me.
Clean me.