Breathe

This week has the possibility to be good, or on the other hand it could be bad. Its really hard to say at this point. I am pretty good right now. I've felt a little weird lately, head pains, lots of head aches. Which is weird cause I have ever been one to have a headache.

Anyways, Its weird how things go in life. God builds you up for weeks until you're at this place spiritually that you've never been before. It is awesome isn't it? Then it seems like you fall. It is always so easy to fall at that point, because thats when you're most vulnerable. I have been learning a lot, but not really. I have been learning a lot about very little. Just about Gods plan for my life, moreso his love. Grasping the greatness of the love of God is not easy. Knowing what Christ did for me, only to save me from the sins I struggle with everyday. Its a hard concept. Why, why would he do that for me? I know why. Cause he loves me. I've studied this all before, I know this all. Its just a thought that is worth rethinking over time, I think.

Anyways a hug is an awesome display of physical love. God doesn't usually use physical interaction to show his love (he does sometimes) but I like this poem. It kind of puts his love into a physical act of a hug. If that makes anysense at all.

TheHugpoemI read about how you touched them and they were healed
Or even if someone just touched your cloak
they were forever changed
You let a broken women bathe your feet in her tears
And you washed your best friend’s feet
I am just wondering though did you just ever hug people

I mean I know that it is a silly question and all
I am sure you would have
why wouldn’t you have
But its one of those things that was never mentioned that got me thinking about it

And how whenever there was a touch from you
sins were forgiven and sickness fell
I think I’m caught up in my sins
last time I checked all my body parts were properly working
I'm nothing special here
I am just a kid with a heavy heart
these passing sunrises and sunsets

I don’t think our encounter would have ended up in your gospels or anything
Because all I really need is a hug
That is ok for me to imagine right?
That’s not going to be conflicting with any sort of theology is it?
Ok good, then hug me

But not one of these side ways one arm around the neck type hugs
Or the ghetto right hand clasp fists elbows to chest pat pat on the back back
Or you put your right arm over my left arm and I put my right arm under your left arm and we make this weird sort of diagonal thing
No none of those

BEAR HUG ME MAN
Take your old school carpenter arms and throw them around my upper body
leaving my arms dangling underneath yours somewhere
and I can barely move them because your squeezing so hard
But don’t pick me up and make my back pop because I hate it when people do that

And then hold me, hold me here in your arms until I start to cry because
I WANT TO CRY
But I just can’t seem to do it on my own
I have been teary eyed once recently
but not even enough for a drip down my cheek
Theres just hurt in my soul that needs to be purged
so hold me here in this hugging pose
until the pain is flowing from my eyes and nose
B. hathaway