I slept through christmas
I read blogs, and live journals a lot.
I am not quite sure why.
Do I get much out of them?
Sometimes, not always.
If you read this regularly you might know about a situation I am sort of apart of. One with a good friend of mine, and her boyfriend. I read his live journal and honestly, I feel empty after, well most of the time. I am just not sure what to say, cause I have told him time and time again that I am not trying to take his girlfriend. I do not want to do that. I had a guy do that to me once and I didn't like it much. I have done everything he has asked me, I have quit talking to one of my best friends forgoodness sakes. What else can I do? Should I just kill myself so he knows that there is no way that I will ever be able to take her? I would never do that, but honestly, he is making me feel like this is all myfault and I honestly don't think it is? Maybe it is and I am just pompus.
The point is this: I go to school, and I come home. I always am so tired once I am home, I feel like I can't do anything. Am I dieing or something? When I was a kid, I use to always be up and doing stuff, but now it is like quarter to seven and I think I could honestly go to sleep, other than the fact that I got guitar lessons in a little bit. I dont kow what the deal is.
So I leave for toronto in a couple of days. I can say that I am super excited about going, I have never been out east, or anywhere away from alberta and saskatchewan. It is a huge thing for me. And just the chance that I have been given, to take a week of school and pour into some people's life who need it more than me. To share God's love to people I have never met, and probably will never meet again. The more I think about it, the more I realized how blessed I am to have this chance.Yea...
I also know that I really enjoy the band iron and wine. I got a ton more sonsg on my ipod from brooke and it rocks. Thanks brooke, you don't even know what you have done. I think I could give up most music and just listen to this. It is real, the guy has a killer voice, and he hs a good picker. I will admitt, some would call it country but I could care less. I am not afraid to wear that country banner on my back. If it means good music I totally do not mind at all.
The point is that I think you should all start looking around
Realize the beauty that is set before you. God is good
Even when it feels like he isnt.
Zachary Michael
2 comments:
Zach, i do not think you are dying...(maybe that question was aimed at me..considering i usually give you health advice..haha)...you are probably not getting enough sleep though...do you get at least 8 hours a night?...i know that's a lot..but recommended for people your age..and do you get enough iron? (red meat, leafy green vegetables, dried fruit, fortified breads/cereals/pastas)...if you have low iron that might make you feel tired more.
mostly i'd say you are just worn out..though you are right this may not be normal..b/c i didn't get the worn out feeling until AFTER highschool...it definitely comes with age..ugh.
also..excercise can help boost your energy too..something to think about..even an evening walk by the river with the ipod a few times a week would do..heck i'd even join you if you need motivation, you can never get enough exercise..and honestly my life is lacking it severely these days.
wow..long..sorry.
get some sleep kiddo and have fun in TO.
jessie
No problem, Zach. Imeanit.
Honestly that Bright Eyes cd topped everything. I really need it this week.
If I don't talk to you beforehand... I really hope you have a great trip in Toronto, and that God is just with you there every step of the (that) way.
It was good seeing you on Sunday. and THANKS for that last statement "God is good. Even when it feels like he isen't" :)
oh.. and i posted on my photoblog. another photographers opinion?
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