I am tired

I just read someone's blog and it really encourgaed me. He talked about how in his life right now, there is so much going on and I guess I kind of picked up on that kind of "tired" emotion if there is one. Not just normal tired at the end of the day, but a tiredness that goes deeper. Anyways it was just kind of encouraging to see that there are other people that feel that way somedays to. I am not the only one who feels that way.

I am stuggling. I am blogging at 10:37 am and I should be doing chemistry 20 homework which is due in five days. Not cool, not cool one bit. In fact I dispise my homework lol. This is my break, and I have homework? I think that is pretty stupid to be honest.

Lots has been going on lately. I just got back from toronto on monday afternoon at about two. It was nice to walk off of that plane and see my parents with smiles on their faces waiting for me... Thats a nice feeling. I guess thats when you know you're at home.
This week has been kind of crazy between people wanting to know about my trip, girl problems, homework, working out band shows. It can get kind of heavy on a person. I have got to ride a ton lately though, I love longboarding. There is just something aobut it. A peace I get when I ride, I am not sure where it comes from but it is good. Its like the eye of the storm, a calm place when everything else is going crazy.

It gets super tiring when people keep asking me to tell them about my trip. It gets old... "well, we did this, and then after that we did this, and then this...." Like i mean people should know but yea. I have just goten home and I need room to breathe. I need a friend that wants to hang out and say npothing just sit there and listen to sondre lerche. Thats something that can not be found right now.

SO there is this girl that i've liked for a while, she likes me. It is a long long story. Its a long story which I do not want to type out so live with it. The point is, she broke up with her Boyfriend, and I am helping her get back together with him? In my mind that makes me a mad man. That situation has been a burden on my heart, honestly. Her boyfriend hates me because she likes me and I like her? Last time I checked that wasnt a crime, but I can understand his position because I would most likely be like that if I had a girl friend and so on.

Dont you ever wish that life would jsut give you an easy run at it? Love would fall in your lap, there wouldnt be to much homework, no fighting in your life, things would just kind of fall into place and people would agree. It would almost be to good to be true.
Somedays I wish life would go that direction cause we as people get tired, physically tired. Emotionally tired.

Emotionally tired, I have just got back from a trip to toronto in which I have worked with homelesss people for seven days. It really puts your life in perpective when you do that. It makes a person want to second guess everything they do. "do I really need this?"
Its a really hard place to be, to work with those people and then come back to your life. It is adifferent place to be, that is forsure.

One thing thsat I will always hold close to me and try to use is this: Disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed. I will go back to my church and I will try to disturb the people sitting in their seats. I want to comfort the disturbed, all it takes is to stop for a moment and actually acknoledge them. buy them lunch, like what is $10.00 to me? Its nothing really. I guess that is what I have really come away from this trip with is, homeless people are real people, lots of them are actually smarter then I will ever be. They have stories that you could find in books, they have traveled palces I will never go. It is all kind of unreal.

I am tired.

Zachary michael