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Hey friends, family. Whoever exactly reads this.

Life, wow, live is weird the way it works honestly. It was just a few days ago i was streaming over notes, cheat sheets, and test scores. I now find my self wrapped in numerous blankets, silenced and numbed by sickness. I can hoenstly say that I am sick of being sick. I have been sick since about early november. I don't really know why or how, cause I am not the type of person that gets sick like this. In my whole life I have never felt sick for this length of time. It makes a person wonder. What is something greater is wrong with me, like some weird thing that I will die from in a few months. Haha I know that that is not true but one tends to be twisted in the mind when ill. Once that thought passes through my mind its like well say if I did pass from this earth how would life continue. I know for certain that life would continue. But how would it continue. What would happen to those close to me. How would the react and deal with it? Would it even be a big deal, or am I just another face in this crowd. I mean there is so much that the mind can lend it's self to. Crazy thoughts I tell you.

Anyways this sickness all started yesterday. I ate some burger king and that definitly did me in. Later that afternoon I started to feel a cold coming on. This morning, I can barely talk, my head is pounding, I feel like I am 100 degrees, and I am incredibly sore. Sounds like a fun time if you ask me haha. Trust me it wasnt. Anyways I am not a fan of feeling this way right now.

I have so much to do, so much on the go. Maybe this is God telling me to slow down? Maybe, maybe it is my body just being tired. We as humans can only take so much at one time. And maybe it is getting sick of me pushing it to far.

My shedual. Tonight I got band practice, yes i am still going. Tomorrow I have a meeting after church, I plan on sleeping most of the day. My family is getting a new couch. On monday I do not have school but I have a 24 /7 meeting at like 11:00 am, we'll see about that one cause I am not feel great, hopefully by then I will be better. Monday afternoon I am playing a couple songs infront of a large amount of teachers at a division conference or something. I am "student entertainment" There is suppose to be 600 teachers. That will probably scare me lots. I am on to many drugs right now for it to effect me. lol Tuesday I have guitar, if I am not dead by then. Wed. I have band practice, thursday I have band practice and I am attending the stars concert at louis, I am excited for that one. Friday night I got yotuh and probably band practice after. Saturday band practice and then we are playing at the louis battle of the bands. That will be fun I think. I will probably be really nurvous and freaking out, but lately I have really been enjoying band and what we have been doing. I enjoy our music.

Anyways thats like my next week. In amounst that I am starting my second symester of grade 11. That I can say that I am not one bit excited for. But I mean I will survive. I actualy want to have an awesome life sometime. anyways. cool stay in school kids.

much love,
half dead zachary