Breathe

Sick.

So here I lay, in bed - same place I've been all night and last evening. After spending the day at school yesterday, walking around while feeling horribly sick I thought that I should spend as much time as I can this weekend in bed - so thats what I am trying to do, just resting and drinking lots of water - and listening to country music (brad paisley) haha, who am I becoming?

Point being, I had a pretty good week, it was an adventure - but I am really feeling sick like I said above. I don't really know what it is - it started out as a chest cold and has slowly moved up to my head and it just hurts now haha, I had some sort of fever yesterday, thankfully that feels like it has gone away, now we'll just pray that the rest will be gone soon as well.

I have been working through a lot in my head lately - mainly this: College isn't really what I thought it would be - infact a large number of new intake students such as myself feel the same way. Not to down talk the college, thats not my goal. I am just trying to work my way through this - why I am here, why is being accomplished, how should I respond to the fact that the college is not what I thought it was going to be, etc. Its just been on my mind a lot. Currently - I am sitting tight, and trying to give this my all - assessment time has started to roll around, so today I will be spending quite a bit of time starting to work on the assessments given, which is a lot of reading, and thought - some research - and writing songs? Yea, for my songwriting class I have to have six songs written by the end of the semester - which is good I think, it will encourage me to work on the gift which I think I have, or at least - am beginning to find. It should be an interesting journey, and I am just trying to make sure I am in the right mindset.

This music, country music in general I guess - it takes me back - if I close my eyes I can see myself driving the small dirty roads out to Redberry, and then sitting in the shop - the dusty air, sitting in the bike shop with the Tim's - sipping a coke, and the camp food that gets old by the end of the summer, I can remember it all. Its funny how much does that - how certain music reminds you of certain things. I hope that I can write songs that do that for people someday.

Two days ago I started reading the book "Sex God" by Rob Bell. If you are unaware of who Rob Bell is - he is the guy who started and does the "Nooma Videos" and he is the Pastor of Mars HIll Bible church - I believe its the fastest growing church in north america? Either way - the book is an exploration into sexuality and spirituality, and so far - I haven't been able to put it down. I will probably write more about it once I am done it - so far I love it. It has some real good thoughts.

Anyways, I hope you're all well.
Don't worry about me - I am really fine.
I'm learning how to really take care of myself.
Its all apart of this journey.

Take care everyone.