Walking alone down this dusty old road.

[this will probably be a bit of an emotional [emo;] blog so yes, if it is not your cup then jsut pass it by]

well here it is friends, another issue... issue? of what? Oh man...
Anyways I definitly am listening to copeland, thinking about things that I usualy don't at this time of day. We'll get to that in a bit. This week has been different, I must say I dont know how I would survive being deaf cause I have had a lack of hearing in my right ear this week and it has just about drove me crazy. But yeaon top of that My computer has not been my best friend to say the least which kind of sucks but I am over it for now. I watched a movie last night (I am not going to say which one) but it definitly brought the emo out of me. so here it is.


OVer the past year I have got to know this girl, through really weird circumstances I guess you could say. She was a good friend of this guy which I was friends with at the time. It all started with the reciving of an e-mail adress and We basically spent the next six months just getting to know each other. It was a different friendship, Honestly I didnt have to think about who I was being, I didnt know her to well at the time, she didnt know me. Our friendship was jsut there, The short of it is that we became much better friends than we ever thought we would have, and maybe better friends than we should have. Cause honestly I am pretty sure we were two different people from totaly different worlds, and totaly different groups of friends. The thought that we became as close as we did sometimes leaves me wondering how that ever came to be.
I dont know where I am going with telling you all this.

Through out this time I was in this friendship me and this girl, well I guess you could say that liked each other off and on but there was nothing solid in those regards. It was sort of like a game I guess... we were both just to scared. Then came the day where I got the call that she didnt want to give and I didnt want to hear, it was the call saying that it was time for her to move. These plans were sort of in the works for a while and with it being the begining of summer she would leave soon. Before I knew it I was gone to camp, which was really good for me actualy cause at the time I needed to get away from home and that was God just providing a door for that to happen. again.. .the short of it is this girl moved awayleaving us both unsure what to think of the situation. Soon after we started writing each other letters, which I must say was probably the highlight of my summer, I love getting letters so send me some! Here is what I am trying to say...

It took for her to move five hours away for us to see somethings that are so real for her and me. Now that she is moved away there are so many things I wish I could have taken back... like all of the stupid little arguements and disagreements. Friends what I am trying to say is love the people that are closest to you cause they will not always be by your side holding your hand. Maybe they will always be by you but that may not be the case.

To end this off I just want to say love on. Take it as you will but yea... I hope you guys have a stoken day and a good weekend.

Much love; Zachary michael

Song: california by copeland