Breathe

Its time time of year, when I pack my life up and move out to camp. How do I feel about it? I am not totally sure, I know it is where God wants me to be, God has something to teach me there this summer - I don't know what. But I want to know, I am ready to be taught I guess you could say. I am honestly sick of being a mediocre Christian and not living this faith, for all that it truly is. I am just plain tired of it. Even after saying that, will I change today? Probably not, it takes time, it has been taking time - I guess it is more of a goal, you know?

I am ready for camp though, and the change that it brings.

I graduate tomorrow, we had the run through of how it will all work, and it seems like its alright, not to bad. I am pretty stoked I guess, just to get things done and over with - I am tired of everything holding it up, all the prep and exams. You know, I guess its all part of it? I say "you know" way to much, just realizing.

I am at a weird place in life. I am honestly not to sure what to think. The one thing that is different this time is that I am not scared, I am not worried or anything like that. Life is here, its this path - surrounded by trees on both sides and all I can see is the dimly lit ground just a little bit in front of me, and just a bit behind, I can't see back, or forward. Its a bit of a trust issue, God is teaching me how to trust after years of not being able to trust. I could always trust, just not Really.

I am so thankful for friends - for a best friend who cares, who lets me care.
I am so thankful for her.

Anyways - thats life right now. :)