Breathe

Today was a long day, just people, I guess is what really got to me. Some people were just being ridicules. Whether it was teachers treating us like kids, or watching friends make not so great choices. It stinks. It really stinks when you realize that your once best friend, really is not at all anymore. Its hard to think that, all those times that you trust and grew together, seem as nothing. Odd.

It was a hard day, I don't really get it, I was just plain edgy - I hate being like that. I think its a bit of an attack. I am leading worship on sunday and the weeks leading up to that always seem to be hard. That is no excuse but it might be why I am a little off today.

I sit here in the church before worship practice, by myself - I think. How do I come after a day such as this before the King which we praise. How do I do that, other then throw myself at his feet and pray that he will forgive me, and help me change.
I get so caught up on other people sometime, but really I am blinded by the pole in my own eye. I must change, I mean its not like I am dieing or going to, its not like I am murdering people. I just know that God did not intend it to be this way. I want to learn to follow and walk in Christ's footsteps, and really thats a lot easier said then done. I can only strive for it. It is by Grace which we are saved - and thnak the Lord for that, because without him, his love, his forgiveness - I would be a complete mess.

I will praise God today
and forever.