Breathe

Life is weird this year in the sense that I get confused. I never use to get confused about life and its happenings. Everything was a little more black and white, now it is more of a canvas covered in many colors. Its tough, once a person becomes unsure of himself, how does he find that assurance again? I have yet to figure it out. I know that I am what I am, no matter what people say, I like it more the most part (what I am). There are things about me that I would change if I could, some things just take time. Its like a journey, becoming the person you want to be. or as Bradley hathaway says "it's a constant process this is, making you into the person you are to become." And that it sure is.

All of that aside, I am learning lots of small things lately, not by choice, but because they seem to end up in my lap. To be honest with you, I haven't been super happy the past day or two. Its ok though, because I've learn't somethings, or more so are learning somethings. You know how you're suppose to thank God for both the good things and the bad? That is sort of like this. I think I come off in a very different light then what I would like, I don't know what that light potrays me as, for I can not view myself fromt the outside, but I get the feeling it isn't what I wish it was, thus I am learning that I can work to change that. Not on my own strength, for I lack that (mental strength), lately. I am tired, maybe I am seriously ill? I doubt it, I probably just don't eat proper or something stupid like that, its how it goes though. Most of the things that we find wrong in our lives are inflicted by us. Such as arguments with family or friends, health (not all, but I mean really, I probably could prevent getting a cold if I tried), Mistakes we make, or friendships we break. It is all apart of that spectrum that we control.

Anyways, tomorrow will be neat. Jordan and I are going to interview Copeland tomorrow afternoon before their show at prairieland park. I am pretty excited about that actually, I've been a fan for a while now, it will be neat to hear what they have to say about some things. And really, tomorrow is another day to work on one's self.

Changing, changing, trying to change,
Zachary