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Oh to be a child again, not bombarded by the overwhelming thoughts of growing up, change, regret, or world leadership. There is so much that plagues my mind lately. The world, it seems like it is going downhill, maybe its always been like this and I am clueless? Possibly, but i'm not sure.

Regret, should I regret? I don't really think so, cause I mean doesnt everything we do form us into the people we are to become? I would assume so. Experiences change and mold us, we take memories and lessons learned from each experience. Its learning to move on from those things that you don't regret. Thats the hard lesson. Breaking the cycle isn't always easy. Sure God is there to help a person in a time like that but I think he also expects you want put an effort in as well.

Change. Change in heart? Not really I still know what I believe, and I believe those things more and more everyday. Its the change in my physical life; life after school, change in continents, change in friends. Its all part of this pre adult life I am entering. Am I ready? I hope so, I don't think the ready stage is to far off for me. I am pretty excited, I just want to get to the good things in life rather then taking another two years of schooling right after highschool. I'd rather take off to australia first and grow. The fact of the matter is I probably won't be ready to go to australia after highschool and it would be a smart choice to get my pharmacy tech. certificate before I go and get my A.D. in ministry.

I feel like I have so much more to experience before that part of life kicks in. I want to tour so badly. When we opened for ten second epic we got to know attack in black pretty well. I think we might hook up for some shows / tour in later months. That would be so good. Even my mom is starting to agree with me (which she never does when it comes to band matters) So it must be the right thing to do when it rolls around.

Im really tired this week, tomorrow is hump day, then only thursday is left. No school friday or monday. Thank God for that one.

Blessings on you all.