I will meet you on that beautiful shore - J.R. Cash

How do you walk away from what you know best? I have become really good friends with a girl over the past year. I knew her before the summer but we have gotten to know each other ever since and it has been cool. She doesnt live here, so that is kind of weird. But hour long phone calls bridged the gap. She is easily one of my best friends.

Its been really hard, her boyfriend doesnt really like me talking to her and its been hard for me to deal with because I mean... My days go like this: come home, do what I need to(band, HW, work, and so on...) and then most of the time i'll call someone. I am very much a phone person. and I'll always go to call her but it is hard, cause she couldnt talk to me any more.

Today I read Her boyfriends live journal and I dont even know what to do. I know that this friend did not say those words, it was her boyfriend, but I guess in my head they are kind of associated. Thats my bad. It hurts, I know that I have "hurt" him along the way and i've said sorry but he keeps attacking the situation, and I have gathered that the won't stop until I walk away. So I will walk the line. If there was a sun set, I would ride off into it. Never would I return home. Cause home doesnt feel like home.

I don't think I have a choice but to walk away from my best friend. How does a person do that. Do I just keep writing the letters and never send them. I mean. I don't know what to do. I am very lost and confused.

On another note, I am very glad I am going away again this summer. I am almost positive that I am anyways. I leave at the begining of july, and won't be back until late august or september. A joy it is, I am basically running away in a sense. It is great. And I get paid to do it. Just me and my guitar.

I think my guitar is my best friend.
I hope you are close to your best friend.
Love them like there is no tomorrow.

Zachary michael.