what if.
I just had what is probably one of the most random thoughts I have ever had. This is a far out post so unless you want to be amused or enlightened to anew thought Don't read it lol.
I was just sitting here at work, Listening to a song on my I pod, I was staring at a tack board where there are all of these bulletins and papers pinned up. Looking at this blue pin that was holding up a list of phone numbers for important people, supervisors, boss's, owners. What if I was just a bump on the floor, or something that didnt feel. Something that was just a part of life.
Often I get so caught up in life, in being a human, caught up in human things. Things like work, school, money, love, bands, emotions. Those are all normal things for humans to think about, or get caught up in. Sometimes it goes to far, book to much work, have to much schoolwork, not enough money, our beliefs, little things like those can make life seem so heavy and unrealistic. Christ said that God would never give us something that is above what we can handle, Thats probably true. For a while now though, life has been just a little to heavy for my liking.
I sit here or where I am when I feel this and I want out, I want to hop on a bus, go to sleep and not wake up. Things like that. I do that now, so freely, without even thinking about what Is going through my thought process. Do I really know what I am saying when I say I want out. Do I know what I am giving up, or am I just cheaping out? What if I was that pin on that wall. Would I have a desire to be an intellectual, and have to deal with the human issues, and concerns. Would I be content doing my job holding up a pin. I don't know, cause I am not that pin obviously. This makes me think though.
Maybe I take my problems lightly and the wrong way. I mean if I have problems that must mean that I have something causeing them. A brain to question, a new guitar, a good school, a paying job, people to interact with. Its just a thought I had but yea. Think about it, cause yea I think, well I dont know what I think right this second but I will probably figure it out sometime.
- zachary
1 comment:
well...i guess i am part of this blogging nation now...mostly just so i could comment on yours and a few other very intelligent people i know who write in these things quite often...not because i have plans to write a whole bunch myself..but who knows..maybe i'll be inspired someday.
anyway i just wanted to say that i have thoughts like these too every once in a while...i guess sometimes when i get whiney about life and start to complain about things (that i honestly have no right to do), it's humbling to have that little voice inside my head that reminds me how wonderful a creation i am...not to say a tack on the wall isn't something to be in awe of.haha..but you are right when you say a tack can't feel, has no imagination, cannot show love (it can cause pain however..ouch!)..anyways..you get my drift i think.
basically i think you're a pretty smart and mature grade 11er.
that's all i got.
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