teenage drama.

Emo, emotion, emotional? Am I really? honestly... you must be kidding me. So I was studying and I hear my mom call my to come upstairs to read something and lone behold the O.C. is on. A show that I Vowed to stop watching, cause honestly teenage drama screws you up more than you ever will be able to imagine. So I sat down, and watched the whole episode. I now would like to fall back into the bottomless pit of emo and rent the first two seasons, eat a bunch of fatty food and cry. How much fun would that be?! anyone else want to join me? cause I am totaly being serious. But yea...

Anyways, another day down, one day left to go until the weekend. I am looking forward to sunday, a day I can actualy do nothing and rest. I ended up getting 5 hours of work this weekend at lakeview school, so that will be a nice start to the month. I Should also be getting my pay check sometime soon, so that will probably be super nice. I am pretty happy I ended up getting this job with the schoolboard. I mean it is easy, doesn't require to much time and such, and it pays. What more could I ask for.

I am currently taking a break from studying for my physics 20 examination tomorrow. So catch this, I go to start studying tonight and notice that my calculator is not here, which makes doing examples out of the picture. well thats gay, so I have gone on a huge "note re-writing" fest. or something. That is basically what I have been doing for studying, that and memorizing some labeled diagrams.

I feel pretty lonely tonight, so if you want to call me and you know my number, please do. It would brighten my day. It is a weird feeling to phone the person you liked a couple days ago and go, how was there ever thought that I liked this person. Its like there was nothing there ever, it honestly is kind of really weird. I can't relaly explain it. But yea, I must say I am feeling prettylonely.
I was thinking this week, and tonight after watching the o.c. how nice it would be to have someone, a.k.a. a girl, in my life who liked me, not like some 3 week frenzy, but something for real, something that was so important to her that she would put her all into, and that there would be no questions at all, as to if she liked me. That would be surreal, honestly. I like that word.

Honestly... how many people are actualy honest? Think about it. SO many of us lie on a day to day basis, even if it is just as a joke or in a joke, or jsut fooling around, we lie everyday. Our society seems to be built upon lies, telling us that we need to look this way, walk this way, and talk that way. unbelievable. The point is that we like in a very unhonest, fake, imoral society. Somedays / nights feel literally cold cause it seems like there is no hope, are we alone? Am I alone in this walk? somedays it sure feels like it. I mean I have friends but, I dont actualy hang out with people outside of school and church, and if I do it is on a very rare occasion. Maybe I am just a nerd, an extream intovert maybe? maybe I am jsut going crazy. Who knows... Honestly.


Thats just a look into my
thoughts tonight, friends
and family. Thank - you
for you time. Have a good night
And dont let the bed bugs
bite, remeber that when
everything else fails, love
Will prevail.

Zachary Michael