Going crazy but surrounded by so much peace

Life. Well it is finally becoming somewhat normal unlike the past few months. Camp was definitly good but it has its up's and down's. I know that forsure. It has been a real long summer, yet it feels like I havent had a single holiday. Unbelievable. So chaotic yet I feel a peace about that. I don't know how I will make it through my school year, how my grades will look or which crowd I will hang out with but I know I want to know God. I've been saying for so long that I will get to know God better, live my life all for him but it just doesnt seem to ever fly. Hold me to it cause thats my dream right now.

I have sure been doing a lot of thinking. You know? Who am I anyways. "well, Im zach lucky". Wrong, thats only my name. I am a child of God, Created in his sight, and I am beautiful in his eyes. Yet I always feel so unsure of myself. I feel like I need to conform to a society, sure I like dressing a certain way but does that make me a statistic? Am I then conforming? Or is that just a sad attempt at individuality.
Honestly right now Im not sure where I belong. Like... Which kids do I want to hang out with at school. Honestly this year, I want to be the quiet kid who doesnt have anything wrong with anyone. The kid that people just pass by and dont deal with. It would be nice to blend in. But in a school like mine, well lets just say its not always easy.

And now look where I got myself, Im not sure where Im going with this blog. Im definitly tired from a really long summer, and I start school right away. Lifes not easy but Im learning to fall on God on nights like this.

Have a good night
Keep close the ones you love
Never forget them.
Love God, Love people.

With love, zachary

Mood : thoughtful
Song : traffic in the sky by jack johnson