Breathe

Its been a while since I've had an actual post about life and its happenings. Life has been fairly busy - with work, friends, music commitments, and trying to get ready to leave. Trying to get ready to leave, that is correct. I will be leaving for school (in Australia) in approximately seventy three days. Give or take a few.
That in itself is really huge to me, and I am not really sure what to expect, I think I am ready for it though. I am ready to experience something new, I need something a little different for a while. I also feel the need to learn, the need to grow, and I sort of feel like studying, how weird hey? After years of high school (in which studying seems like the worst thing ever) there is something inside me which longs to study and learn. I am ready for that.

Here are some thoughts as of late:

God will use you when you are weak. When you think you are totally incapable of doing God's work, God's will - he will turn your situation around and use you. What does this mean for us? For me, it means that I have to realize that God is here and now, God is wanting me to actually live my life for him. I keep asking God to show me his hand at work, to show me that he is real. Would you believe it, he totally has, over, and over, and over. Yet I am stubborn, and I sit comfortable in my sin and lethargy. I think it is time for a change.

I just wonder, why is change so hard, so difficult for us, for me. I find it so easy to change, to start living the way I wish to - but after a couple days I tend to fall back into my old habits and laziness. Change is much needed, right now.

If I do not change, am I truly who God wants me to be? No. Thus, I am not even close to living life to its full potential, what would life be like if I did? What is life's full potential? Is it what we make it, is it something which God has predetermined?

Those are just a few thoughts I've been pondering.


Music which I've been listening to as of late:

Today I was scanning through my ipod and I came across the Do Make Say Think album which I downloaded quite a while ago. Once and a while I would listen to thirty second clips from it, but I've never really given it a good listen. I've been listening to it all afternoon, its sort of just fits with today. i really enjoy the collaboration which they have going on. There are many different sounds which you might not hear together, they make it fit very well. Its not to thought provoking, and its having the same effect on me today, as "You forgot it in the people" by Broken Social Scene had on me when I was in grade ten or eleven.

Also, after getting paid on friday I stopped by HMV and picked up the new Dashboard album, and I am fully satisfied with that purchase. I spent most of friday listening to it, and let me tell you - it's awesome. Chris is back people. For a couple albums, it seemed like he lost what he had. Part of me has to wonder if it was the record company trying to form him into something which he was not. He seems to have returned to his old style on this album. It sort of reminds me of what "Swiss army romance" was, except he has totally grown up. Lyrically and musically, the album just sounds more mature then anything which he has put out. If you have ever liked Dashboard at one point or time, go pick up the album - you will not be disappointed.


I have also started recording again. I have really wanted to an album since coming back from tour, I am not sure how that will work out, but I plan on releasing some songs, a collection of songs - some new and some old. I think I am planning on calling the collection of songs "common dialog". A lot of the songs feel like letters or conversations I've had, thus - Common Dialog. If you are at all interested in listening to any of the music I've been working on lately go by my myspace. www.myspace.com/thepoetandthethief. The songs are posted there.


Anyways, I should get going.
Enjoy the semi nice weather well it is still sunny out.