a petit dejeuner

How do I write the songs I really want to when I find it hard to speak. How do I become the person I should be. All questions, all the time. haha Life just seems to be full of them right now. Its rather awkward for someone who has never asked questions like these to start asking them now.

Things have been busy lately, I feel as though I say that every post though. This semester at school was suppose to be my easy semester, and all things considered, it is. I just thought I would have more free time then I do. There is always something I could be working on, or so it seems to me lately.

I am just trying to figure things out: friends, love, life, song writing, a deeper faith, etc. If that makes any sense. I love the few friends I have, I really do. It was neat last night, Andy shauf needed another place to play the night after the house show at my place, so we hooked up a date at Sabine and co. in Waldheim. Its a good place, with good food. Anyways, I have a friend who works there most of the time and it was just really good to sit in the back of the kitchen and eat food, talk, and vent more so? We both had a ton to talk about. We definitly use to hang out a lot, but we don't really anymore, its just how life is working right now, and we both see that.

I like today. I like the fact that I am alone, as weird as it sounds. I am so use to being alone and away from people most of the time, and over the past few weeks, It feels like I have been around people constantly. Its nice to get a break, and strum some strings. Its time to do some thinking, and reading. Its good.

Remember to smile and be thankful for what you have.