this is the new year

The break are suppose to be just that, a break from life, the regular tiring grind. I never seem to use them rightly when I get them, which is realy stupid. I am sitting here with a few days left and I am really tired. It stinks. I guess it will deinitly be good though, cause kendra's bus comes in sometime soon so that will be really good to se her, I think its been a year or more. Which really is way to much.

I think I've been doing more writing lately then I have within the past year as a whole. Its kind of cool, I am always down for working my thoughts out to a chord. It makes my sleeps better, cause there is less stuff on my mind. You know? I use to write a lot to get that sort of stuff out but i quite writing poetry a long time ago, Im not to sure why either. I should take it up again I think though.

Life is an interesting thing right now, Im pretty quiet. I've always been a pretty quiet kid, but with something to say always. I don't really have much to say, other then what good music to check out. You kow. I don't know if it is a good thing or not. I don't know if something is wrong or maybe Im just chilled out, which would really be fine with me I am just trying to figure it out, while living it. The other day I had an old friend ask me if something was wrong cause I seemed different to her I think. Nothing was wrong that night, when something is wrong, I usually tell now. Its not something I hold back, cause I no reason to.

Well, the year is over, should I make a new years resolution? MAybe I should try but lets be honest here, does it ever work for me, more or less do I ever actually hold tight to it. Not usually. Maybe this year I'll ear more greens, and become more of a social person. Maybe I'll go for a run everyday (I doubt it), or maybe do 30 push ups every day. Those all seem to be pointless in the large scale of things, I mean they arent really. But compair to somethings, thus one would ask why I wouldnt pick something that has meaning and is life changing, because I would try and then give up two weeks in. Its tough, but lets keep smiling.

Happy new years.