warning. venting zone.
Sometimes a person can't help but to get really flustered. Somedays you try to make an honest effort to be happy, and nice to poeple. Days like that never seem to go right though. It just takes one thing and then the ball is rolling. It starts with someone reading you the wrong way, getting pissed at you. And then you go talk to someone else and they think you are to selfish and are sick of things. Like honesly. Keep your problems to yourself.
My family can tend to be pretty freaking weird. Honestly Someday when I am all grown up and have my own family I am going to make sure it is not like this one. I want my kids to have a normal life, not have to put up with the stuff that I have to somedays. I know that somepeople have it so much worse than me, and by no means am I trying to be little whats going on in their lives. But we are all accoustomed to different circumstances. And this is a though one for me. I dont really know what normal life is. Someone is always dieing or sick with something that makes life even harder. What is normal life. Why cant my family be happy for more than one day? Why can't wesit down around the table and have a positive tlak. Why do people inmy family keep swearing and expect me not to. I dont get that one. "well your the kid, you do as I say" I am sixteen and somedays I would just love to pack my stuff and move out. I cant wait until I am old enough to move out. Why do people say to do one thing and then they do the total opposite. I really dont get that! You hypocrites. Like I have done this before, but I admit it. I dont sit there in denial. its the most retarded thing in the world.
I wish Things could be normal for just once.
I wish I could have a nice week, and not
have someone pouring crap into my day,
let alone my family doing that. man.
Forgive me for saying this all.
Zachary Michael
2 comments:
Well, Zach:
Are you okay? I have throughly enjoyed the numerous text messages that have been sent in your favor todays. Close your eyes, Zach. I hate that our families give us such pain, and trouble, but each day is a new day, right? i hope your day was better. I hope band practice went well. Just close your eyes and pertend you are somwhere else. If it only lasts for a moment...
So. You said we'd talk tonight-- where are you? :)
Brooke.
Zach,
I want to share something with you that I learned a little while ago; around the time that Jeremy shared some of his problems with the family, and my mom decided to tell us about her abortion. I was sure that my family was the most messed up family in the world. A really special person told me that My family IS normal. Normal is not comparative. I know... It sucks alot at times, and sometimes more often than others, I understand that. and by no means am I trying to preach to you or anything...I just really want to encourage you. Your family IS normal, for your family.
Lets talk sometime... its been a long time!
Laurel
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